Possible pitstop in dec

SYDNEY IN DECEMBER?????

I'm pretty sure I heard my dad mention that !!!! :D :D :D :D :D

I think I just found an unexpected source of inspiration and motivation !

Wheeeehehehehehehe!

EXAM TIMETABLE

9th June - chinese oral

10th June - Investments

11th June - Derivative Securities

15th June - EPM

22nd June - Chinese written paper

WATCH ME !

hahaha! and I think I just found a 心理相通 friend. Hahaha. Just when I thought my every other friends were being unresponsive, she msged me randomly... LOL.
(quoted exactly)
"Haha... No more classes...Yay!! But it means exams are nearer now :S
Dun stress~!!! Hahaha... but I'm quite :( "

Cuteness~~~~~ hahaha! It does help alleviate the stress a tad bit. And come to think of it, we were from the same high school but never really got to know each other until we're in uni. Anyhow, glad I got to know her better eventually.

3 more weeks till its' all over !
In the mean time, I am just gonna ignore the rest of the world.

Hence, an added activity to my holiday plans... :)

Plus, I'm reconsidering the trip to UK which I got all excited about before this. Reason shall remain undefined.
Let's just say it might not be all that worthwhile after all.

grad party and after exam

ME WANNA GO!!! Anyone free to teman me???

Just realized I will be so so so busy after my exam...
(? denotes activities that are yet to be confirmed)
Work...?
Grad party...???
Gold Coast...? Sydney... ?
Food trail... Birthday party... Sleepovers... Dessert date
Brunch date... Bring my friend from Brisbane around Melb (10days)
Job applications...
Start sorting my stuff out??? (too early perhaps? haha!)

If my problem is still not resolved by the end of this week, I am gonna have to inform my dad :(
I can bet you he'll know exactly what to tell me to do...
Don't know how long I can hang on and daddy's the best place to seek advice since the whole world chose to ignore me at the wrong time (except my hsmates and a tiny fraction of my friends)

I am serious about being ignored! It feels like I'm talking to some imaginary friend.

Future

hmmm.... At the stage where decisions need to be made...

Dad said it's entirely up to me

which also means I have the freedom to decide

Time for some serious considerations and clarification from the HR dept...

A pic I found sitting in my laptop! XD

And after much hassle, I finally accepted the offer *click on the word to view* with my tentative starting date on the 1st of Feb 2011. bohooo.....

Hello corporate world!

Move on and get over it

Who am I to even say anything???

So the best that I can do for now is just shut up and keep it all bottled inside until it's my turn

I prefer it to be either one way or the other and NOT both....
Ultimately, I dislike doing that particular thing to ppl around me that I know plainly because I know how it feels and the feeling is not one to brag about. Daddy really dislike doing that to me (maybe because he knows I purely can't stand it?) which is why he always ask me whether I wanna follow him to wherever he is going.

I kinda wished I'm going back this coming July ... so that I'll stop myself from sleeping so much just to pass time ....

Mentally tell myself that "I'll be alright.... "
Suck it in and move on....

Although I've been shoo-ing someone away online on Msn pretty often, but seriously the annoyance was exactly what i needed. I need to express my frustration once in a while to avoid the volcano from erupting and there aren't exactly a lot of enthusiastic listeners around(from what I can see/ hear).
Oh... and a thoughtful sms just came through from a friend ... Thanks a lot for the support and encouragement! Couldn't help but burst into tears after receiving her sms ... Good to know someone is watching me quietly from the back
(my twitter updates played a huge part in this) ...


GAH! I need em' gals around to de-stress. I really did enjoy myself last Sunday with yummy brunch followed by dessert.... :)
Good company + Good food= pure awesome-ness!

Can't wait for exams to be over... Way too many invitations from my friends

Gold Coast... Sydney... Food trail... Birthday party... Sleepovers... Dessert date
Brunch date...

Suzy's 21st

The big well known b'day planner here is at it again... The victim this time round is Miss Suzanna ! The bunch of girls just had the duty of bringing her out for a drink at 4 plus until 6 something while her brother and his gf prepared the following.... *FEAST YOUR EYES*

That sash I was wearing belongs to the bday girl on the right !

Me and priscilla just had to take some funky pictures together ... HAHAHA!


My crazy self at its' BEST !


We had dinner at a nearby restaurant and then played Wii for a bit after that... And we took some pretty Polaroid shots at the end of the day
It really hurts to know that we might not be able to do this as often as before once we've all graduated. This is definitely one thing I'll miss once I start working. Everyone will be all over the place by the end of this year and it'll be pretty hard to come across such an event where everyone can come together and have fun together....
I really had second thoughts about leaving Melbourne after the party but then again, after clearing my thoughts for a bit, I am still as determined as before to GO BACK HOME !

I had too much free time on hand until I mentally made a list of desserts that I really wanna make for my relatives and friends when i finally return home :)
It'll grow with time
1) Tiramisu
2) A layer cake (*secret*)
3) Italian cheesecake

NO MORE apple crumble! LOL! Miss Suzy and Kerry brought the topic up ytd ...
Sorry girls... I really detest making apple crumble although it was the BOMB (quoted exactly)!

Come to think of it, it has indeed been a while since I last felt so scared until I could literally burst into tears. Yups... Call me a kid but I think if u knew what happened to me that triggered the fear then u probably would have a change in mind :)

I am tired of giving so I am gonna start taking what i deserve from now on! I am gonna be totally ignorant about it until it's my turn.

6 months to date

Close to 6 months left ... that's about half a year no???

I may seem meticulous in calculating the number of days left before I leave Melbourne but can u blame me??? I've had my fair share of painstaking events the past 2 and a half years and i refuse to partake in anything that is similar of that sort in the near future.

I can't wait to return to the place where people around me are genuinely concern about my well being and generally acknowledge my presence and contribution.
I honestly miss my little cousins. I love how they get easily excited over the littlest things. *sigh....* and might I just add this little fact that they feel relatively comfortable around me. They'll hold my hands when we walk around the neighborhood.

See how they love sitting on my lap while taking pictures??? cheh... (my cousin might strongly refute this statement though... hahaha)

That's my little cousin busy talking to me... :)

Contrary to the ones here, trust me when I say this - you'll get plenty of "good" friends once you're easily taken advantage of. I previously expressed this to my BFF but this month itself, my phone bill sky rocketed to $60 in total only because I was trying to be helpful. How ironic eh???!!! I literally wasted not only my precious time but also my dad's hard earned money trying to help people.

I am visibly upset and frustrated because of this... It's like I 'm paying cash for some of my "friends" awesome grades. If u get what I mean by that???

and
I am at that stage again where I have trouble sleeping at night. I'll go to bed at about 1am and lay awake until say 4 or 5am before dozing off. Hence, I'll only get out of bed at 12pm without fail. At one point, I was even awake when the sun came out. I have no idea what's my problem but i am pretty sure one of them is fear and perhaps stress plus a mixture of unhappiness in there somewhere.

Conclusion: PMS mood !
On the bright side, my BFF's did help to alleviate some of the frustration and suffering. I dunno what i'd do without them sometimes.

*throws a chicken at Eugene Chin*

STOP asking me to fly back to KL during Winter !

U're not making my homesick-ness any better but aggravating it further @_@

Alternatively, fly to Melbourne instead XD

I'll gladly welcome u

As much as I wanna return home in July, in reality it is entirely impossible

and when its time for me to return, both of my BFF's won't be around :(

However, despite the distance, we'll always keep in touch and be each others' backbone (this doesn't apply to Eugene Chin) HAHAHA! I need to be around someone where I can be my crazy self and yet not look like a fool! The combination of both of our lame-ness is just outta this world. LOL!

Thanks penguin for constantly reminding me it's my meal time XD I really do appreciate it !

Housemates and Nasi lemak

The stress finally got to me today ... Woke up feeling horribly upset and moody. Worse part is I had to meet some friends in the city for lunch and i was awfully quiet the whole time (contrary to my usual talkative self, it's kinda easy to tell if I am troubled). But seriously what's there to tell?

That I am ONCE again stress??? because I always end up doing a lot of unnecessary stuff which will somewhat affect me in a bad way....
Problem is I value my friends too much to even have the heart to ignore them or treat them badly. Hence, I am taken advantage of most of the time and I will have to suffer to make up for that "lost" time that was spent helping them.

Anyway, back to the main agenda. We had lunch/ brunch at Menya and I couldn't even finish 1/4 of it and someone even asked :"Did u even eat?" While the rest finished >1/2 and close to 3/4 of wtv they ordered, I probably just managed to take in 1/4 of the food i ordered.

And i only took some pasta for dinner before my housemate appeared after talking a walk after dinner with her friend with SUPPER for me. She bought Nasi lemak for me and I had to finish it just so that I don't feel guilty. Her thoughtfulness reminded me of my dad. Dad used to feed me (not literally) when I wasn't eating well. Feeling all warm and fuzzy at the moment. Well until I spotted a MOUSE in the house... @_@

history repeats itself

Late 2007, I studied like a robot just to ace my exams and escape KL. It happened exactly like how I pictured it. All the responsibility and pressure was just too much for me to handle.

In came 2010, my most crucial year and final year of studies. Similar to 2007, I am more than determined to do well and achieve the target score and head to S'pore to start work. I refuse to return to KL just yet BECAUSE I kinda gave my promise to someone that I will buy him a car and my pay in KL is definitely not gonna make up for that amount.

That said, S'pore is one competitive country so I am gonna work my a** off this year for that golden opportunity. Plus, we might even be able to negotiate a nice lil trip to UK if I do well for my third year *wink* to see the following people. haha.


*sigh.....* those were the days....

Cut and please continue cutting

I keep getting cut short by those around me...

Before I can proceed to say what is exactly on my mind, there will some form of indication that prohibits me from doing so.

I had to stop short my activities just to take some time to listen and explain and listen again. And right before I reply, I get cut short again. Annoyingly frustrating but that went on for close to 1 hour.

At times(the past few days), I feel like telling someone that I'm not at my best (u know what I mean la) but I always had to suck it back in because the other party is just not interested AT ALL!

FINE ! So I decided not to even bother trying.
Feeling extremely stress at the moment (anyone knew that?) followed by ongoing migraine (panadol is my best friend) and then today I had a really bad stomach cramp and had to miss a lecture plus the weather is not doing me any good.

I will suck that all in and digest it bit by bit with some help from my close aunt in Malaysia. She sends me an email every 3 months or so to check up on me.
Does that explain why I love my relatives so much?

And this just came in today
2nd upper class => 75 and above??? as if la I can get that score...

Don't worry if u can't find me on FB... I deactivated my account until the 15th of June 2010... Will be back on after that :)

Next up will be my BLOG itself .... XD
If u do see whats on the piece of paper hanging from my study lamp on my table, u will realize how serious I am about this ...

I am gonna go into hiding this weekend. For once in my life, let's put my priorities above the rest alright? I am gonna finish my investment assignment before friday since I have a separate agenda during the weekend so buzz off leeches!

The friend I have

To someone awesome that is currently having her exam...

GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST !!!

Here is a toast to our awesome 5 years of long lasting friendship and definitely more to come!

Thanks for being there for me always ! XD
Ironically, you're the only one who hasn't tried my desserts yet ??? WHY ah???

Even though we may differ in erm.... height(I have a picture to prove my point)? and area of studies ? but that obviously doesn't change anything ... haha.

P/S I honestly think that you look the same *points at penguin's belly fat* (I am gonna get killed for this) LOL!

This penguin friend of mine is the only one I ever cried in front of... *shy* and that was when our SPM results came out :) And we even spent SPM days together at her place for lunch before the next paper (u know how we used to have 3 papers in one day???). She is the only one I feel comfortable blabbing to about my not-so-fab life. She's seen me at my lowest and saw me pull through without much help (thankfully!) XD

I have to seriously try and beg my dad for a loan to fly to UK in Dec and spend new years eve there !!!! Sounds great but honestly... Let the money do the talking !!!
Note to daddy: Please let your precious daughter fly to UK in Dec to meet her friends !

mid sems

Withdrawal symptoms visible !!!

I am so gonna fly/ train/ hop over to Clayton in any given possible way to see some friends !

I so need my daily dose of Miss May Jin and Miss Ooi! We shall be heading out for brunch this weekend after I am done and over with 2 of my mid sems! Grrr... I can do it!

Hence, at this state, I am totally not the best person to annoy and trust me when i say that. Not ready to take any rubbish from anyone or even acknowledge their existence unless its' very presence does result in a significant improvement to my life.

Brunch ... Beach or just a normal yumcha session will do fine ! Just freaking get me out of house and out into the wild! I am being choked with loads of almost incomprehensible concepts and I need a breather ! and those girls do a pretty good job in keeping my emotional well being at par ....

Warm chocolate pudding as my comfort food!

Let's return to the future

Let's all go back to the year 2008 ...

where it all started...

A simple case of reflecting back on what I've been through up until this stage

that makes it all that worthwhile

7 more months till it's all over...

which also means i'll be able to fall asleep smiling to myself and also look forward to the next day

As mentioned, it'll be another horrible 7 months before my family set foot in Melbourne but before that, I'll definitely pull through my final year and happily return back to a place where I can call home. However, I'd be pretty sure I'll miss Melb in the near future but i'll do fine. :) I can always return to visit anytime eh? But I am more than determined to enjoy my last few months here.

Don't mind the homesick me who has nothing better to do and to go on and on about her life...

The desktop background picture does a pretty good job replenishing the lost strength whenever the motivation meter shows a negative figure.
Time sure flies ....

Meanwhile, I've been
Constantly blasting music while studying, closing the door right behind me, opening it to a pitch black place, lying on bed tossing and turning with one thousand random thoughts running through my head, trying to fix a simple meal with practically nothing in our fridge .... Seems all so familiar eh? But the peace and serenity kills...

contrary to this....

blasting music while I'm studying, banging on the door once in a while just to remind me it's dinner/ lunch time, opening the door only because someone wants me out of the room, lying on bed but yet unable to sleep because my silly bro is busy using my laptop with the lights on or jumping on bed for that matter, having trouble trying to finish my food on the plate because it's just way too much and hence, bloated stomach.... Sounds like a nuisance?

So which situation do u think is one that I am more than happy to bear with?

So gonna plan a darn road trip or holiday with my friends when i finally return home for good end of this year ! We have so much to catch up on ! *grumbles* and it's all my fault for being a workaholic eh?

7 months to date

i miss my best friends dearly... If only I could return home in July but that's entirely impossible. I know i still owe u guys desserts but trust me, u'll get the best out of me when the time comes. In the meantime, u all will just have to bear with the pictures.