I am freeeeziiinggggg to death honestly.... The temperature was about 5 - 8 degrees for the past few nights.

I really don't like the cold due to several reasons:

• my fingers get numb
  
• my legs too
• i get headache because my body is cold but head is hot from too much thinking.... LOL. Sounds irrelevant eh?
• My stomach won't shut up at all... It growls every 3 hours. And i mean seriously growl....

And OB is killing me softly.... .... .... .... do attend my funeral ok?

Cold and alone

I seriously gotta stop going into depression and emo-ness everytime the weekend arrives. I hate being left home alone to be honest. It's not the a nice feeling to come back to an empty house and sleep alone in a dark house knowing that even if u do get a nightmare which I did a few days ago, no one is there to comfort u. I don't quite remember what the nightmare was about but I knew I woke up crying.

And again I am emo again because it's a sunday - weekend !!!! It's so cold and I dunno why but somehow everytime it gets really cold and I am alone , I feel homesick.

Is it because cold = need warmth = family warmth = human comfort ??? Anyhow, I refuse to succumb to emotional eating again although I am really susceptible to it nowadays.

Upcoming baking

Here is the list of what I wish I could make and would try to make in future....

• Swiss roll - failed the first time
• Japanese Cheesecake
• Chocolate Mud Cake
• Tiramisu
• Fruit tarts
• Muffins
• more cookies - since today was the first time my cookies turned out to be cookies and not muffins

So far I've made

• Cheesecake Brownies
• Brownies
• Pineapple upside down cake
• Chocolate chips cookies
• Rich Chocolate cake with frosting
• Is pancake made from scratch considered?
• Chocolate tarts with fruits
  

And it has only been 2 months since I came back to Melbourne.... So it's like practically every week I am baking...

Clayton pics will be next round....

Updates

I know I've been MIA for quite some time.... Reason was I had assignments and tests. My average sleeping hours was about only 3-5 hours every night. On On Wed night, I only slept for 4 hours and the same goes to Thurs night. Friday was worse, only slept for 3 hours. Anyway, right after the submission and the end of all my tests on Friday ... Can u roughly guess what I did to relax and unwind?


Manchuria Bar
Me and my tequila shot. It was 40% alcohol in one small teeny tiny cup... Felt a bit wozzy after the shot but it wore off after 1 hour.
Followed by a visit to De Biers Bar Club
Wasn't really into the music played - how do u actually dance to songs by Soulja Boy, T.I. and other unknown artists?

They did play some really good ones too like Poker face by Lady Gaga, The Way I are by Timbaland and When I grow up by Pussycat dolls.



It was a fun and new experience all together. Something different since it's my first time going to a bar and club until 3am. Fun but not something I would do very often.... I believe there is a limit to everything u do. The most would be probably once every few months and maybe like 2 or 3 times only throughout the whole year?

Btw, thanks Pei Fern for belanja-ing me the tequila shot without telling me in advance that it was 40%.

I got drunk the last time after downing half a cup of vodka which was also 40%. Unexpectedly, this time round I downed 2 tequila shots and I was still walking straight although not after the first one I had. I was a bit "high" after the first one at the Bar but wore off after a while thankfully.

I came back at 3am that night and slept at 5am and woke up at 8am to prepare this before going to Clayton for a visit.

Irresistible chocolate chips cookies...

And clayton it is 12pm onwards....

I shall put it in a separate post....

Home....

Seeing my housemate and her sister chatting, arguing over little stuff and joking around kinda triggered a minor homesick-ness in me.

I kinda missed that part and my ego wouldn't allow me to openly admit what I miss the most. Even though I would say my situation this year is tad better than last year, I still miss home once in a while; less than before though.

I know I haven't suffered from major homesick attack like last year whereby I cried non-stop for one whole week and ate nothing but koko crunch or is it coco crunch the whole week? Talk about being independent and my eagerness to leave home with any given opportunity. However, if u ask me whether I would do the exact same thing given another chance, my answer would be yes, I would. The reason being that I have grown to be more mature and independent, finally discovered the beauty and art of cooking, and grown to appreciate what I have taken for granted the past few years.

Here are some of my creation:


But like I said, this year was a major change as I have a new housemate and she is mostly around so I feel less lonely and the situation whereby I don't talk to anyone, and I mean literally opening my mouth to talk not msn or email etc for one whole week wouldn't happen again. And obviously I am also less susceptible to emotional eating during winter now.

Btw, my housemates dad is here in Melbourne as well. And he is bringing all of us out for dinner again tonight(he brought us out last year too when he came to Melbourne with Mooncakes).

Suprises....

Housemate's sis finally arrived this morning at 6am (according to my housemate). She came with my camera all the way from KL. My Panasonic Lumix DMC-FS25. Cost was about Rm 899 since my cousin got a really good bargain for me. I know I don't sound enthusiastic as I should be but I have my reasons. Completely worn out today and I still have tons of work to do. Currently blaming myself for slacking throughout the Easter break. So much for telling myself to study hard this year.

Next week I have 4 "BEAUTIFUL" surprises waiting for me:

Let me introduce them to u...

Tuesday: Intermediate Financial Accounting mid semester exam
Friday: ICT assignment due
Organizational Behaviour mid semester exam due
Cost Management mid semester exam

And apart from that, I've been working really hard at something. Just wait and see u ppl. Give me a few months and I'll show u the results.

Tata for now....

Addicted and currently listening to

Weird situation....

Today was a really weird day and it was like a repetition of what happened to me in Form 2 which was in 2003? Correct me if I am wrong on this....

First it started with a msg from my bro saying my dad dun allow him to go for MSSD. Reason was because he had to skip classes. I was pretty much in a similar situation in Form 2 where I had to skip classes everyday for one whole month to attend some Merdeka dance which was compulsory.
And as expected, my result went spiraling downhill.

The funny part was that I never realized that studies were that important. All I ever thought of was only joining in the Merdeka dance which was fun btw. However, come to think of it, was it all worth my studying time?

Thinking back and reminiscing those fun days in high school... I think it was well worth it but the joy and fun has a limit to it as well.

The conversation with my dad on the phone 30 minutes ago actually made sense. This was all I could remember from the conversation with my dad.

Me: aiya.... school nothing wan la. Skip also no difference one.

Dad: Eh dun say that it's useless.

Me: but its true. Because i think tuition is more useful than school

Dad: So means school is not important now? then why should I bother sending u to school last time if tuition was so helpful? I was paying for your tuition to learn stuff. If u hadn't had tuition, would school be not important as well? Then where would you be learning? Not everyone is as fortunate as you to able to go for tuition.

Me: *speechless because it is true right?*

Dad: If the hand ball or Merdeka dance is so important, I would have sent u to a Sports school and not University of Melbourne. It would have been so much cheaper but the outcome would also have been different right? Am i making sense?

Me: erm... yeah.

Dad: Tuition is of course useful because that is the whole purpose of going to tuition is to learn and brush up on what u learnt at school. You don't learn everything from tuition.

Me: *totally speechless*

Coming back to what my dad said... It does make sense doesn't it?

If I wasn't actually going for tuition, where would I be gaining knowledge from? School obviously. But because we have been attending tuition and in tuition classes we are well ahead of school so it might seem like school is useless and we are not actually learning anything from it. And does it mean that just because we are paying for something(tuition), it is definitely better than the one that we didn't pay for (school)?

It is like watching one particular movie and watching it twice. Would be the first time watching it seem more interesting than the second time? Definitely yes because we would have already known the story line when we watch it the 2nd time.

I just realized that I had the same mentality in Form 2 although I am already 20 years old now. But because I am 20 that I realize that .... yeah my dad actually said made sense and I see why he was so against me skipping school during exam period just to stay at home and study. I was probably too naive and innocent to realize that when I was younger.

Just think of it as you, yourself being a parent and paying for your kids' education, in particular tuition. And your kid says that school is not important... Would you somehow feel hurt?

All your hard earned money that is put to their tuition is indeed important but everything else that would have saved you so much money such as school is not important at all? It's like although they do physically appreciate your money (by attending tuition) but yet not mentally appreciating it (thinking of ways to save your money / optimizing the usage of your money in the best possible way).

I used to think that parents will never be understanding of their child's' needs. But what we fail to realize that it is actually because we are both standing on different grounds.

Parents think of what is best for us. We think of what is important to us. The difference = misunderstanding.

So those younger generation out there, don't always think that your parents are so stubborn and narrow minded. It is in fact, we, the younger ones who are narrow minded and short sighted.We think that joining in everything is fun and we tend to miss out on what is actually more important. But NO it is not wrong to pursue other interests but there is always a limit to that. Do keep that in mind.

Happy Easter !!!

Easter is fun and nice and yet will leave one feeling remorseful once its over?

Why???

Fun because:

• We get one week off to relax and enjoy ourselves
• Best time to spend with friends
  
• Shopping !!!

Guilty because?

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Here is the answer


Get it now?

Shopping....

Shopping at times can be really fun and satisfying and that is currently how I feel except that I probably spent about $100++ here but less than $150.

Btw my dad doesn't have to know about this ok? so shhhh....

Anyway U can probably see from below what I scooped up at Smith Street and DFO Spencer.


2 tops from Forever New - $29.90
Grey Scarf from FCUK - $19.95
Tights from Supre - $15
Jacket with hoodie from Converse - $54.99 (the most expensive one yet)
A white cardigan from Glassoms - $20.00

Total? $139.84

Top (from left to right) : 2 tops from Forever New, Scarf from FCUK
Bottom (left to right) : Converse jacket, tights and my white cardigan

I regret not getting a flats from Smith Street though. It was a beige Tony Bianco flats that cost $40. It was really comfy and nice... Haih... Anyway, no more shopping for the next few months or so unless I come across some good bargains la...

This shopping was a form of reward for doing well in my first OB - Organisational Behaviour assignment. Scored a H2A which was well above average.

Those who don't know the grading standard

H1 - high distinction
H2A - Distinction (the higher of distinction)
H2B - Distinction (the lower)
H3 - Credit (the average score)
P - Pass

Not too bad eh? ngek ngek

And after shopping from 12pm to 6pm... I went out to eat with Kerry, Chengsu, Suzy and Hui Zheng and then adjourned to Kerry's place for a game of Monopoly. I know I know.... Monopoly???

Hey , we were bored ok? Whats there to do in Melbourne, the city where everything closes at 5pm?

So anyway, Chengsu won thanks to her hotels and obviously the rest including myself bankrupt. I am still pretty upset about it ... :( We had to pay $10m if we land on her property alright? So its kinda impossible not to bankrupt... lol.

I shall sign off now... Tmr going over to Kerry's place again to cook and also play another round of Monopoly. I will make sure I win this round...

Birthday....

A huge fat shout out to someone back in Taman Tun


Poser sial....

HAPPY 15th Birthday, Monkey/ Pig !!!!

btw, Monkey/ Pig = my brother in case u dunno what I call him. That is what I call him for being so disrespectful to me.

Guess what he calls me???

Ans: Fat girl

Anyway, gotta scoot. I have so banyak banyak stuff to study.

P.s. ur Food as shown below is making its' way back the following week k? the big fat brown moose is not included so plz be patient


NOTE: 2 Tim Tams, 2 Sipahh, 1 red rock chips, 1 Cadbury crunchie