Stress .....

I am such a typical university student.... Currently applying for work so that I don't have to use up my dad's money to buy my very own digital camera.

heard that, monkey?

Anyway, the time I have blogging is limited right now so back to studying... Sungguh stress la... everyday gotta study day and night.... so unlike someone I know BUT i trust that u know ur priorities....

Tim Tams, pods and Red rock chips are at stake depending on ur results....

Anyway, here is my 2 text books for accounting..... One is Australian Financial Accounting and one Management Accounting. See how thick they are? *roar*






















P.S. yeah i need u to make sure he knows his priorities.

I am getting my very own digital camera soon !!!!
Yipeeeee....
And mua is going to Adelaide in July to stay with her uncle...
Can't wait....

LOST, HELPLESS.....

WHAT WOULD U DO IF U WERE IN MY PLACE?

U know a person
U care about this person
U have to protect that person
U are at the other end of the world from where that person is standing

That person?

He is part of your life

He is young
He is immature
He doesn't know his limit
He has no idea how much pain he is causing others
He doesn't know his priorities
He is ignorant

Do u know
how hard 2 ppl are working to support u?
how much others have sacrificed for ur sake?
how ignorant u are?
how many have we told u not to do a specific thing repeatedly and yet u still continue to do it?
how painful it is for us?
how much our heart aches everytime u choose to ignore our advice?
what it feels like to see u put ur friends' opinion and preference above our sacrifice?
that money doesn't grow on tree?



I hope u are happy now

• knowing that u have cost others so much pain and suffering
• knowing that I am fed up with ur tricks and ignorance

U know very well how many times have I told u not to

• waste money
  

on ur stupid phone bill, fashion and countless outings with your useless friends
YES !!! useless in this sense because they themselves don't know their priorities like u. More specifically ur shuffling friends....

• put other less important things above ur responsibility

Such as? Girlfriend.... continuous sms-es.... outings which apparently is worth ponteng-ing class activities and tuition... and lastly the worse part ur shuffling....

• make others feel frustrated because of your behaviour

what behaviour u may ask? ur ignorance and stubborn attitude. Is it that hard to get everything straight and plus u know very well what u have been doing wrong all this while

• put your friends first before everything else

What makes u think that all your friends are right? Their opinion matters more than ours? Is it that important to please them?

Must u say Hi to everyone u know when u go oneu? Ur a celebrity now is it?

Honestly speaking,
U can't please everyone
and how many do u think will support u if u need help?
Doubt half of them would

My 20th bday....

A lovely card from Pei Jie all the way from KL. Thanks Chan!!! and a lovely bracelet from Hui Zheng from Diva.
A handbag and wallet from Billabong, a card and a chocolate from Jia Chen, Matthew, Yi Jien, Hong Zhao, Boon Zheng, Zai Liang, Kerry, Suzanna, Audrey, Chengsu and Foosu.
A trench coat from Jacqui-e, a Boost gift card and an earring from Diva. From both Yi Lee and Pei-hua. Without forgetting the yummy brownie they baked for me as well..















A huge thank you to everyone who made my 20th b'day the best one ever even though it was not complete without my family... Love u guys !!!

My vacation training at EY

Lol. Its not that bad ok?

Anyway ... to the more interesting photos now... Pardon me ppl if i dun remember ur names...

My friends



My colleagues
Meng Hui
During Xmas
Iza and Moon Sin
Josephine, Chooi Fong, Ju Lin and Janice Ong
Siti

Hon Tak- my Senior in charge... hehehe
Kevin
Kak Ani

Plain exhausted....

Oh god!!! I am seriously dead tired.

This assignment marathon, consistent revision everyday and daily chores are slowly draining the energy from me.

By the end of each day before 11pm, I just feel like collapsing into my warm bed and sleep like I've never slept before

I'll just leave it to u to decide how tired I can possibly be.

7-8am: Wake/ Get up

9am: Class

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most of the time until

4pm? 6pm for today

It wasn't all classes.

It was classes
+
consultation with my tutor (Assignment)
+
Group discussion (Yes assignment again)

6pm till probably 8pm or 9pm?

Cooking + Cleaning up + shower

9pm till 12am if I am still able to stand on both legs

Study i presume? OR

maybe the occasional tv. Probably 30 mins at most a day?

P.S. I hope someone do actually realize that this kind of suffering (referring not to only one specific person) is actually for them

2nd year

Ok it has indeed been a while since I last updated my boring lifeless blog.... LOL

Anywayz, I came back and left KL and the usual workaholic me was obviously working throughout my break. I was doing my internship actually at Ernst & Young in the Tax department. Not much that I can say as to which company I handled etc but my seniors were great. Ok maybe not all the time but most of the time? There were days where I just stare into my desktop for the whole day and also days whereby I skipped lunch just to finish up some work. Well, at least I end at 5.30pm unlike some of my other friends in audit. Moving on to the final month of stoning in Taman Tun.

What can i say? Apart from the computer and dramas I really had nothing else to do since I am no longer a car owner.

Anywayz....... I am currently back in the city of crazy weather and it is now the second week since I've been back. My 20th birthday is next week and I am honestly not looking forward to it at all. God I am getting really old. I better start acting like a mature 20 year old adult. Wait !!! Dun I already act like one? Being all motherly according to some friends of mine.... hahaha.

Signing off now as I have 2 assignments due next week plus the shopping next wed and desert with my EY friends on Monday night.

Btw, my New Year resolutions were

1. Lose weight
2. Study hard as usual and do well
3. Save money for my family = less shopping (this wed is an exception!)

Utter Depression

no idea why... but my mood has been fluctuating a lot lately... just noticed i put on 5kg during the one month break and now it's freaking hard to shake it off...

Been trying to diet and exercise but it's really not helping much... did push it down by 2 kg or so but still it is really depressing... I feel so fat, stupid, useless and obese!!!

Finals are over

God knows how bored I am these days....

Our finals are officially over and the group of frens i came with are all back in KL!!! I am so tempted to buy a plane ticket back and never come back here. But u and I know that is kinda impossible...

I started looking for a job since last thurs (today is monday) and yet no one called me up to employ me. Sigh Sigh... sad case la. I might just be unemployed this holz. And in addition to that, rot like nobody's business.

I could drown myself in korean drama or jap dramas but quite unlikely after my internet exceeded its limit last month. And it took ONE HOUR just to load a youtube video. Imagine that? And i tot streamyx Malaysia sucks. At least they don't have a limit in term of the size of ur downloads. My faults actually for watching 4 dramas in less than a week.

Fortunately, the internet resets itself on the 25th so here i am rocking. Started watching a new drama again right after my PBL exam ended. haha. And definitely the best korean drama i've watched in my entire life.

Name? HONG GIL DONG!!! Thumbs up to the entire cast for making it such a fatabulous series. Kang Ji Hwan is definitely one hell of an actor and surprising Sung Yu Ri too. I am now crazy over Kang Ji hwan and Jang Geun Suk.

Kang Ji Hwan for his amazing acting skills and charming smile. He is 32 btw. I'll get over him soon but not anytime soon of course. Jang Geun Suk who is 21 for his pretty boy face.

The storyline and acting was perfect in HONG GIL DONG. I was laughing throughout the series and also crying away especially in those parts where Kang Ji Hwan and Sung Yu Ri are both crying. I can't help but cry too....

I think i cried in these few scenes:

• HGD hit Yi Nok in the back that made her unconscious to avoid her from getting hurt
  
• HGD got shot by an arrow and Yi Nok was looking frantically for him
  
• Yi Nok was crying when she got drunk and Gil Dong was actually nearby
• HGD's dad was poisoned to death
• Yi Nok accidentally stabbed Gil Dong and fainted
  
• When HGD and Yi Nok separated and he hugged her with both of them crying
• The ending!!! where there were fire arrows ....
  

Although i hoped for a better ending but it was probably the most appropriate ending for this drama. Such a beautiful love story....

My sorrows

Yup... I came and left m'sia all in a blink of an eye.

I kinda think that probably not going back so often is better than going back frequently.

My reasons?

1. Plane ticket increased by rm 1,500 thanks to the soar in petrol prices to rm2.70 a litre.
2. I simply CAN"T handle the come and go situation

I thought that feb 20th 2008 would be the last day i'll ever cry at KLIA but I was really really wrong. When i left on the 8th of June 2008, I cried again but less than expected.

The main thing that triggered the crying was when i opened the door to my apartment. It was pitched dark and so quiet. So unlike my home sweet home in m'sia. It was never dark and quiet and there is always someone there to look out for me.

Here? My housemate is hardly around and loneliness is getting the better of me. Thank god kerry msged me that night i arrived in melb. She told me to get some sleep and thankfully i felt better after i woke up the next morning as i was busy studying for my exams but I can't hide from the subsequent days. As i writing this, it's kinda understood that I hate living alone without my family. Everyone says that living alone is so much better cos u get ur own freedom without having to worry about others but hell i wanna worry k?

It's like a jail here. Locked up in my room every night staring at myself and laptop crying my heart out thinking about my family and worrying about them every minute of my life and wondering what are they doing. I want my dad to nag me and my bro to bug me. I just need someone here who i can actually connect to and take care of or even better if taken care by.