2nd week

Activities in my second week of holiday :)
Stayed over at llp's place with susu on Saturday night after watching 2 movies and we had brekkie together the next morning.

Next thing I knew, I was so busy prepping for roomie's 20th birthday celebration. I am always up to something fishy XD

Firstly, the cupcakes for the bday girl as well as the guests .... What u see is only 1/4 of the total number of cupcakes I made....

nicely packed into cute little boxes for the guests ....
decorated one specially for lye lye since she had her Gmat exam the next day :)

Dinner at a Japanese restaurant...


and dessert afterwards...

Happy birthday girl! hahahaha!

Decmber 11 ♥

December 11, 2010 is roughly about 2 and a half months away...

But what's with this inexplicable emptiness ?

I think it's a combination of all my worst fears that brought about this ....
p/s i think it's best not to ask

I literally lost interest in everything and anything I do. Appetite dropped drastically, baking suddenly seem so tedious and boring, uninterested in gossips, anti-social ....

Above all that, I feel like calling home everyday, sleep like there's no tomorrow, cry like I have unlimited tears

Best solution so far? library or work by day and gym by night then home to bed...
I need some time alone to think and repent as well as redeem my self-esteem.

It's been far too long since I had a good talk with someone and that's probably the ultimate solution to my problems. Shall have to wait until Si bestie sampai UK and settle all her stuff .... I can't openly discuss this problem I have with anyone else but her... *waits patiently*

And whatever I've been exposed to for the past few days and coming weeks ain't helping one bit but aggravating it further. You know how excited u can get sometimes over something but upon checking out the details, U somehow realize "ok maybe I better not get involved because i'll be an outcast."

memories

And so life chose to throw all kinds of random s*** at you.... So do u choose to complain all the way or accept things the way they are and learn to appreciate?

I know I've been complaining about how sucky certain things are and would love it if things were a bit different? Such as being smarter, richer, slimmer, and more fortunate.

I chose the latter to the question above after doing some reflecting today. So what if I have all kinds of S*** around me, I think I have more diamonds around me than I thought.

As much as I despise being in awkward situations where I have to try my best to fit in without looking like an idiot, but yet sometimes I never fail to bring it upon myself. Only because the people are the ones that matter. To be honest, I really dislike going to bars or clubs. To me, they are the absolutely worse place to socialize and have fun.

However, there are also plenty of activities which I'll never get tired of doing over and over again. And these are the little little things that would matter and become some of the best times in my life. I cherish every bit of my remaining days in Melbourne as we can't foresee when I'll ever return to this continent once I board that plane headed for KL. Will we ever have the opportunity to relive that exact same experience with the same people? And have twice as much fun? There is always something to look forward to in the future but there is never a way back :)

Tears will definitely be shed when the time comes but it's now or never ..... I will eventually leave this continent for the people who've dedicated half their life just to provide me with the very best. And now it's my turn to do the same for them. Those who are reading this post at the moment will know how certain experience can't be relived as and when we want. We will therefore, cherish every moment we shall spend together in the coming times so that when we slowly recollect our memories, we can't help but break into a silly smile and shed tears of joy knowing deep down inside how beautiful those memories were.
And tears did flow just from typing this out.... XD That shows u how valuable these memories are to me.

Anyway, here are the photos taken from Amy's bday party .... :)

the cupcakes me and roomie made for the gorgeous bday girl in red !

A close up shots of the cupcakes...

What can I say?

Sometimes it's funny how I treat others' fairly well but it doesn't always work both ways. *sigh....* Briefly recalled how bad things were about 2 years ago and how different things have changed for the better now... :) I guess sometimes exerting that extra bit of effort do actually make that much of a difference.

I need to get rid of this habit of mine that I adopted long long time ago - I will never ever go to bed until I am fairly certain that the ones that are suppose to be home at the notified time are back safely.

Paranoid? well.... I guess so? But I think it works both way in this case... Silly bro will wait for me to come back all the time. It's quite obvious as he will open his room door immediately upon hearing the sound of the house keys. Well for me... Let's just say I prefer to hide under his bed and scare the bejeebers outta him... ngek ngek... Totally random but u need some fun in life too right?

Sorry... hahaha! Just feeling a bit homesick at the moment and the need to annoy the hell outta my brother until he locks me out of his room XD
I think I've been complaining less nowadays since I am happy with the way things are at the moment. Everything couldn't seem any better than its' current state.

Close to 4 more months ???

Sesat tikus

I am gonna seem particularly vulnerable for the next few weeks or so .... Therefore, pardon me if I seem a lil down or cranky.

Can't really express how discouraged I am at the moment about everything and anything that's going on around me.

Because ultimately, I hate it when I feel like an outcast and at times SESAT plus u have no one to turn to for help. Somehow or rather, U dun want to seem like a fool to the rest but yet again u're unsure as to what's the appropriate next step.

Happened once in my first year and again this year. This is the time where I'll usually go home and complain to my hearts content to my dad without the fear that I might seem unknowingly dumb and slow. And every time my dad suggests something , even though u know it may be out of reach or it's something u can't picture yourself doing it, U'll somehow feel reassured deep down inside....

I feel like a LOST Sheep wondering out in the cold in Melbourne city at the moment.

Made the following items some time back but couldn't be bothered to actually post them up on my blog.

final semester of uni begins

And the last and final semester ever for me begins tmr....

Excited ?
Yes because I have a few classes with lye lye pau plus I am actually looking forward to some subjects this semester plus it also means my family will be coming over soon in just a matter of time :)

Happy?
Well.... not feeling too bad. At least I have things to occupy myself with from now on.

Stress?
Very much so at the moment but this is completely unrelated to studies. Will elaborate further once I am done and over with it. *sigh...*

Anyway, enough said... Latest batch of oven baked babies


The following ones are store bought desserts... will try to recreate the first one though... :)