One week

Babysitter for 2 days and probably more days to come to 4 kids....

If there is one part where I excel in, it'll be this area.

I chase them to bed at night before going to bed, pick up the mess after them, chase them to have breakfast before I "run" to catch the shuttle bus to work, check that all of them are back home at night before locking up, buy supper for the 2 growing boys only to have them finish my breakfast for the next day as well, help them with their homework :P

Nostalgic... It's been a while since I last felt this "motherly"
I can get used to this :D
Kinda made me realize how much I enjoy taking care of the younger ones
"Jie Jie! Ni hao!"
That's what I hear each time I see them.

Krabi in 3 weeks time with the new colleagues
Found a new close friend amongst the new colleagues :)
Not meant to serve as a replacement to the following though. LOL!
We all need someone whom we can trust at work! :P

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One week and counting..... :)

So far so good
Looking at how things were right before I left, I think I made the right decision.
And I believe I have some of the best girlfriends around :P

Anyway, back to some fun stuff! I'll try not to post up so much emo stuff from now on :)
So... this girl decided to make a trip to Johor on Sat despite being unwell and smartly took the longer route so she basically took 2 hrs +++ to arrive in Johor.
Oh well.... Lesson learnt!

Took this from the taxi.
Pretty rainbow

Fun fair in Johor

The 3 brave auditors! hahahaha.

The view from the unit balcony...

The truth will reveal itself with time. I was actively seeking it at one point but I guess it's not really worth the effort. Was not easy especially when it's not from one side.
I am just gonna do what I do best for now, be there for the ones that need me.
I'll be your friend and listener.
I'll do my very best.
This is the real me back in high school. This post is probably the evidence.
http://balaulicious.blogspot.com/2006/12/life-in-balau-in-4-paragraphs.html

NOT good AT ALL!

Down with a bad cold and got caught in the rain 3 times since I came to S'pore.

Daddy is sick too! My fault actually ...

Sigh...........

Got caught in the heavy rain today during lunch hour and it was a long stretch for this one .... but colleague bought me hot coffee afterwards so that made up for the horrible weather ...

hahahaha.

My turn to buy tmr since coins is a big no no for that colleague of mine! What is it with people and coins? LOL.

and I just started searching for good food in S'pore!

Few months down the road.... I foresee myself going back home less often. That's my honest opinion. Even if I do, it's for the 2 important ones.

I've already released my grip and I am doing great on my own. I am now less emotional and less dependent. Not at my happiest but I am happy and satisfied.

I run to catch the bus in the morning, squeeze with the rest of the population in S'pore in the MRT, join the "stampede" at Raffles and do the same all over again after work.

Fast becoming close friends with my batch mates from the same dept(planning plenty of upcoming activities: Dragonboat training, wakeboarding, badminton etc)!

Thank god they dun drink so so much here since my only way around is the public transport.

One is 4 years my senior but yet so full of nonsense. That should be the way :P

The other three currently located at Menara Perak are kept in the loop as I still email them everyday using my work email.

Day1: Orientation..........

New colleagues whom I'll be seeing around quite often....

Day 2: Orientation + dinner and drinks

The only way to start anew is to let go of the past and move on.
I found it relatively easier knowing that the much needed distance is there.
Quoted this from a colleague:
"It takes a min to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone...."

I'll be spending more time with the 2 boys from now on.
Feeling at ease and more relaxed. I found my peace.
I miss home but I don't hate the new company.
Let's just say that they are easier to manage and easy to please.
Less of a headache and complication but more carefree and energy are involved.
Badminton was never this ridiculous and basketball was never this fun at night.
I might request to come back early everyday from work just to accompany them for sports.

Bits from Friday night......



Drank too much that night since I unintentionally declared war against the males and it was 8 vs. 6 and going to Singapore so did not help in that situation....

8 big bullies + Chivas + Coke = Not a good but fun night......

I could still walk but had the urge to puke thanks to someone's (u know who u are!) apparent understanding with the rest of his kind that made us females the target.

And yet again I do not understand how is lipstick the same as lipgloss? Grrrr.....

I will be landing in LCCT on the 12th of August so till then! :)

It's time for a new start with new people but the familiar ones will not be forgotten such as the little cutie below whom I bump into at Mid Valley the night before I left KL. She was happily showing off her injection to us. hahaha.
A new beginning............

There is another small room behind that door with a single bed.... :)

The last ..........

On replay ..... ♥



A fresh start with settled feelings?
Hopefully the lingering feelings will die down with time.
I just hope I am being completely honest with myself on this and not in denial.

I could do with .....
A heart to heart talk with the best friends ....... let's talk until the wee hours of the morning if we have to for old times' sake..... or until I get the answers I seek.

Tomorrow will be my last day at PwC. A place where I made new colleagues/ bosses turned friends. Leaving was probably one of the hardest decision I had to make but I have no regrets.
I just wish I knew whether there was the possibility if I had not killed it right from the start by notifying one of my departure in Aug.
But we will never know the answers for sure until I am fairly certain I am not in denial and the rest of the world is not lying to me.

Was hot and cold but warm now .... Just the way I like it. :)
I am not gonna be greedy.

Personal space is a given from Monday onwards but I shall not abuse it....
I will come back often as promised.

Daddy Sim's 60th b'day is coming soon....
Time to start planning !

Keep the options open for u will never know what future has in store for u
Get the colours right and u will find happiness.....
U are important to some.... more than u actually realize.
Just a matter of HOW important and WHY ?

I know who are the ones that are important in my life.... Do u? XD

And dear readers of mine, I am granting u permission to knock some sense into me IF (highly likely!) I ever end up whining about having to take the public transport everyday to work and also about my new lifestyle in the little island. This spoilt brat needs to learn how to grow up and stop whining just because she has blood red lines on her arms from carrying her uber heavy luggage while taking the public transport!

So feel free to kindly remind this pampered kid or nag me if u need to!

I just had to do what I do best~~~! Annoy the younger one :P

2 childish ones that never fail to drive Daddy Sim up the wall with our nonsense.
Whether it'd be tickling him until he can't take it no more or whacking him with a pillow or kidnapping his precious bolster to my room or just sitting on each other since we're two equally heavy buffaloes or hijacking each others' bed and messing it up or me quietly placing heavy dictionaries on the one who is doing push-ups.... hehehehe.

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I'll miss u too~~~~! :P but i'll see u real soon....

Taken @ TDH in TTDI

Distance may not necessarily be an obstacle

but a test of true friendship.

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Dad: "Soooo.... no appointment today?"

Me: "No."

Dad: "Don't have to work?"

Me: "Working from home."

Dad: "So how are u gonna get to the airport on Tuesday?"

and I went on to tell him my plan for the week.....

Dad: "Oh... Okie lor. But your brother might not be able to follow us to the airport."

Me: "Nvm la."

I don't think the cost of my plan crossed his mind but at least we're both happy :)

I proposed to transfer SGD600 next month onwards to him as my savings and he will execute the plan! Watch the shopaholic me do this! I might even have to come back less often :(

Gonna be broke every month! *sobs*

and also to cut down on the drinks (if possible once every fortnight and not every weekend?) :P

and start exercising more often (My colleague is gonna be my new Kiara hill "kaki"!)

Let if flow for that's the best solution for now.
Not gonna push it for it will come running back if important.
The evidence was quite clear and the justification seemed somewhat vague which added to the distance.
I was then reassured that I'm on the right track- follow my instinct and I'll find my answer.
Had the answers but refuse to accept them as usual.
What I needed and what I seek were apparently worlds apart. And again this I had to be told.
Who was I to think that I am different? I am easily replaceable(maybe not to a fraction) :)

I wanna untangle this mess asap even if it means getting hurt in the process.

Friends come and go.... I did not lose many but gained plenty. Persistent most of the time but I also have my patience limit. I am gonna hang onto the ones that matter the most despite being separated by the sea and the return is currently scheduled once every fortnight. Date yet to be decided but booked for drinks both nights.

And it's here.... The emo friends & colleagues.... The hugs.... The "take care".... The "keep in touch".... The card.... The handshakes....

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Someone finally understands the logic behind my decision. A 95% accuracy and a belief rather than an expectation that I will do well wherever I choose to go.

Perseverance and determination vs. the insecurity.

Let's work on the weaknesses and build on the strength
for I seek to be a better person in life.

Finally came to a consensus with my boss....

A mutual agreement that will ensue in one years' time....

Sometimes I hate how much he can actually read my thoughts and personality as well as know exactly what I'm lacking

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The faint-hearted is about to be played again.....

sigh............

The heart is currently having a tug-of-war

but I am gonna let myself be happy.

Just be true to yourself and the world will learn to accept you for who you are.

Stopped trying to be someone I am not

and

it's back to basic.

It's all about the fun side of me from here on :)

I have already accepted the loss and I have nothing more to lose....

Even if I do not gain something out of this, at least I made a new friend.

2nd half of this year:

Melaka with the girls, Singapore for work, Johor only because my colleague insist that I pay them a visit (LOL! he is gonna read this and I am gonna get into trouble), Krabi with the new colleagues come August, Sarawak with the family ...