Kim's trip and the pothole

Slowly spiraling out of control ...

Like they say "It hits the hardest when we're down". I thought I've left it all behind a few years ago but apparently that was what I thought so. However, it kept coming back every once in a while and again just ytd. I'm seriously not any different compared to the rest ever since I assumed the role 9 years ago. "If u can't change it then learn to live with it." Judging from my circumstances, turning back the clock is not even an option let alone having the slightest hope that everything could return to how it was before.

But I badly needed this moment to remind myself how far I've come to reach this stage to regain control over my life. My more hardworking self just recently started falling deeper and harder into that "LAZY" pothole I dug out myself due to the massive amount workload that refuse to stop piling over one another. It's only a matter of time before they seal off the top with me buried underneath.

It was only a rough 2 weeks and more to come in the near future so buck up lazy bum and stop allowing the unwanted to flow freely every night.

Anyway, here are some of the pictures taken when Kim came down from Canberra. Damn! I miss some of the girls so badly.

The cake was too sweet but i finished it anyway! haha.
Let's kick my split personality one side and back to my happy, bubbly, talkative self! :) I love being able to do that! haha.

Additions to my baking posts

Lemon Pound Cake

Tuna puffs

Blueberry butter cake

Tiramisu or Ricotta cheesecake during the weekend :)

I know I've been wanting to try out tiramisu forwhat felt like ten years but I never had the chance to due to the overwhelming cost of the ingredients. Just a bottle of liqueur will easily cost me $30 and I am not willing to spend that much money on a cake and yet give half of it away at the end of day.
However, things finally took a turn and I have one bottle of Baileys Irish Cream sitting in my kitchen right at this moment thanks to a friend of mine. He bought it as a gift for our housewarming session XD and I accidentally blurted out to roomie some nonsensical stuff about what I almost did. hahaha.

I really think that those around me are spoiling me to bits. Starting from my parents to my housemates to SOME of my friends (unfortunately this does not apply to all my friends) and then housemates" family. Susahlah like that! Don't blame me if I get too spoilt for good and end up whining my head off in future when things are not the way I want them to be.

Whenever I express my dissatisfaction on a certain matter, 70% of the time they can be regarded as a joke or just a mere statement that has no significant underlying meaning to it. However, the excess 30% are the ones that shouldn't be taken lightly. Those issues are the ones that will be embedded in my memory and not one that can be easily thrown away or forgiven. Most of the time it will affect my perception of that person (refer to the red highlighted point above). But I am one who will give the person a second chance to redeem themselves. Don't worry, I don't change my perception of others just because of one incident but I can't say the same for the same offense twice. Clearly, I am still upset with some of my friends here but it's not one to bring up in my blog. Just because i have a slightly more hectic lifestyle back home, it doesn't mean that I want to be thrown one side and be excluded from any activities.

The ones in the following picture are still the best when it comes to preserving my emotional well being. "Mereka paling pandai jaga hati saya". The following picture was taken last night during dinner. We (referring to us girls plus roomie's relatives) had dinner at a nice little Italian restaurant after attending roomie's award ceremony. Congrats again miss Yilee for obtaining the highest score in one of her subject ! (you're not the only one feeling the stress *phew*)
Talk about stress man ! haha. Btw, I love that picture below because we're all dressed pretty much alike and looked happy and awesome (yes! I was pretty much referring to myself but both of them were smiling too!)

I should really count my blessings. Things are finally changing for the better. What goes around DO in fact comes around ! XD So remember to always give more and take little ! :)
and I used to think that people will eventually suck the life out of me since I always put others above myself which sucks btw.

housewarming

From the pile of mess before to this spread! Me and yilee had our very own housewarming session on fri. Sadly, majority that turned up were my friends and only 2 of miss loke's friend could only make it. Nevertheless, we had a great time. With good food comes good atmosphere ! :) Glad everyone got along pretty well !

THE FOOD!

THE PEOPLE !

Yup... that's me alright! I do that pretty often nowadays!

awesome group photo!

Can u spot me?

Own food blog

yeap, u heard it right... I just created my very own food blog where I will post up pictures of my baking.

It's not that I won't post any here but it'll be limited to one or two pictures only.

XD

The blog is anonymous so u would have to ask me personally for the link :)

Easter break

The much needed break is finally here. Apart from spending the past few days at home, nevertheless, it was indeed enjoyable. Spent a whole chunk of my time *points above* , watched some movies that I totally missed out on due to my busy lifestyle and of course SLEEP!

The next few days will be pretty darn pack with my schedule all filled up from thurs - sat.
Thurs - group discussion and dinner with girl friend from Canberra *giggles in delight*
Fri - Grocery shopping and preparation for Sat plus dinner with a friend
Sat - Housewarming

8 months to date

Frustrated, upset, disappointed are only some of the words that can be used to describe my feelings at the moment... Failing one twice or thrice is fine ... But four times in 3 months? This is just way too much for me to handle...

I did not fail a test or exam btw but suck big time when it comes to baking.

is it that hard to master the skill? Grrrr.... Annoyed...


Don't be deceived by the pictures below... it may look pretty and all but the taste is horrible.


By that, I mean the sponge cake. All other stuff are alright but just the sponge cake. I failed miserably for four times trying to master the technique but yet the outcome remains the same. The chewy rubbery texture that refuse to budge. The taste is fine but it's the texture thats' got me so worked up.

Yilee!!! I need your HELP !!! Just spare 1 hour of your precious time to teach me PLZ !!! I'll make u newyork cheesecake in return.

And did I mention I really dislike the fact that all of my close friends are in KL and I am the only one stuck in Aus? I really need those chit chat sessions that can go on for hours and their ears for all my miscellaneous and never ending ranting of mine. I think they are the only ones that can ever put up with me. They understand me well enough to say the exact words I need to hear.

Huge improvement in my mood after having a really nice dream on sunday night BUT don't ask me what was it about for I can't even recall a single detail about it. Nevertheless, I woke up in a good form.

Plus, from my previous post, I've been keeping in touch with my senior and our chats are no ordinary ones because a simple sentence from her reply can really make my day

Quoted exactly
"and no, you are not the first one nor the last. they only said good things about you. you were one of the best vt around.. and some said that they prefer you over some new aa2:) "

Good to know that my presence was felt XD

SO much so that one of my friends who just started working there told me another senior I worked with praised me for being one of the most efficient VT's around. It kinda made all my effort worthwhile.

P/s Penguin... it's the one i told u about ... hehehe.

A clearly overjoyed me then decided to cook dinner for my hsmates tmr night...

Roti Canai and curry chicken .... yummmm !!!

Happy me is off to bed now...

Why bother?

there is a limit as to how much i am capable of tolerating

The reason why I am still holding it in and acting like everything is perfectly fine as it is
is because
I've been in touch with 2 ladies who knows a great deal about me
and
understands them all
but the amazing part is that the distance between me and them
is
6357 km

Even though they are as busy as a bee
there is always a simple email/ FB msg
asking how are u?
or just simply updating me with their life
sitting there waiting for me to reply


Another week till Easter
which means
it's time to have fun with a friend of mine coming all the way from Canberra
Too excited for words at the moment
Finally something enjoyable to look forward to during easter
XD

Retail therapy

A dangerous habit of mine .....

Once I am emo or visibly upset, this is what I generally do

First and foremost -----> pls refer to previous post
Second ------> The following

Burberry perfume which cost $119 .

Liquid eyeliner

Ipod dock (it was on sale k? reduced from $79 to $29)

All that in 1.5 hours which in total cost me $165

One things for sure, homesick-ness is definitely slowly creeping in and it won't be long before I start crying myself to sleep :) However, come to think of it, the chances of me doing so are quite slim without going unnoticed by roomie.

Someone is busy studying at the moment for her exam so less someone to talk to. We'll just have to postpone it till your exam is over XD

It's just a simple case of going all the way back to first year of uni which also prompted my decision not to stay here after I graduate.

My horrendous first week here + July 2008 (the worse month eva)